Saturday, January 7, 2012

Life Is Still Probably Good.. ☺

You know how they say, "the best things in life are free"?, I felt it this afternoon. I went for a run. I was supposed to go to abellana but there's an event there so I decided to just walk/jog/run my way home (from Fuente to Panagdait). I forgot how fun it was! I felt so free and alive. The lights in Ayala are amazing, something that I just ignore everytime I pass by on my way home from, say, shopping - coz obviously my mind's on the things I bought. The night markets were open, people shopping. Lovers HHWW.. hehe.. I've been preoccupied with a lot of things lately that i literally forgot the existence of my surroundings, even my friends. I've been so focused on moving on from what happened to my father, buying things that I thought could make me appreciate life again, partying, etc.. Coz believe it or not, after my father died, I felt so insecure and alone - I didn't wanna live. But because I didn't want my family to hurt again, I stood up, put my brave face on, and go on living. That's how I realized that love is not wanting the people you love hurt, even if it means that you have to sacrifice and pretend that everything's ok. My entire walk/jog/run reminded me of how I used to be - I LOVED LIFE! So, I will continue this fight, until I'll go back to how I used to be..slowly, but surely!

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